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i recognize that my former employer is taking climate impacts of tech seriously now mainly b/c 1) it's trendy and 2) the person pushing it in the org has a PhD so they take her more seriously than they ever took me, but it still really stings to see everyone patting themselves on the back about something I couldn't get any traction on w/leadership 9 years ago
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also: someone who I considered a friend of mine is going to be a fellow doing research for the new initiative and while i don't fault them taking the money/affiliation, it feels shitty to not get a heads up about an org that made me feel disposable is going to announce a big new program in this area! it sucks to find this out via a "thrilled to announce", and makes me feel like I do not matter to you!
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I did get a very sincere apology from this friend after I reached out and it helped so there's that
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@ingrid That is fucked up. So sorry
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@janet I was a little surprised how much it upset me tbh! But I also feel mostly like I've processed it.
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all in all my life is probably for the better no longer being part of that org but being rendered disposable by that org really fucked with me in 2018 and contributed to a super-low point in my life where the suicidal ideation got really fucking bad, & seeing this news brought that all back up for me