academia gripe
my advisor told me she hoped I had plans to "decompress" tonight as I (mostly) wrapped up my stupid grant proposal and like, I am entirely certain that I'm not going to get this grant?? So instead of "decompressing" I think I am "looking for a job because there are no other avenues for funding my PhD so I'm dropping out" hahahaha
academia gripe
look, getting a funded MA was pretty sweet and at this point if I want to try for a PhD somewhere else I will, but going into academia was always a means to the end of "getting paid to write and make cool shit", not the end in itself. mostly the bummer is I do really like my advisor and enjoy working with her!