it is, indeed, worse than last time but I feel weirdly calm, similar to the calm I felt when lockdown started in 2020 of "oh, my personal anxiety and panic matches reality, weird"
@ingrid I’ve also been weirdly calm for the last year and I can’t tell if years of therapy are finally doing something or if this is a new trauma response
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@ingrid I’ve also been weirdly calm for the last year and I can’t tell if years of therapy are finally doing something or if this is a new trauma response