i recognize that my former employer is taking climate impacts of tech seriously now mainly b/c 1) it's trendy and 2) the person pushing it in the org has a PhD so they take her more seriously than they ever took me, but it still really stings to see everyone patting themselves on the back about something I couldn't get any traction on w/leadership 9 years ago

also: someone who I considered a friend of mine is going to be a fellow doing research for the new initiative and while i don't fault them taking the money/affiliation, it feels shitty to not get a heads up about an org that made me feel disposable is going to announce a big new program in this area! it sucks to find this out via a "thrilled to announce", and makes me feel like I do not matter to you!

I did get a very sincere apology from this friend after I reached out and it helped so there's that