Ingrid Burrington @ingrid@everything.happens.horse

who knew the nervous system was such a big deal

In the "gotta do things but the grief is paralyzing" stage of things, mix of guilt for letting people down and confusion as to how I can continue existing at all

lmao posted on bluesky about how nonprofit newsrooms are also separately dependent on billionaires and a former board member of the markup concurred, buddy u are not in a position to take the moral high ground!!

Grief is so exhausting

https://buttondown.com/perfectsentences/archive/perfect-sentences-96/ this week in sentences: fervency, polygons, history embarrasses, direct contact, a hundred times more, braggadocio, we can't stop trying, probably been overcompensated, apple time machine

Thinking about her (the elaborate ARG marketing campaign for Cloverfield)

Did it, the riddles (written PhD exam questions) are done, now I prepare to do battle with the wizards (the oral exam where I have to talk to my committee)

Prepared to be attacked for this but an editorial board actually having the guts to say "we're not endorsing anyone bc of the moral catastrophe of genocide" would be based as hell, sucks that it's just coward billionaires

For the last week I've kind of been holding it together out of shock and because I've focused on supporting Ramsey bc she was his first dog, but it's starting to really hit me how big the hole in my chest is without my dog around

The vet's office sent a card about Kitty and it made me cry because seeing all the vet techs and the receptionist's notes about how special Kitty was made me think about how many lives she touched

Exams update: doing Julie's questions last and they're good but they're annoyingly hard so I am trying hard to not give into anxiety about getting it wrong lol

@inquiline one of my exam questions is about animacies in infrastructure studies--which means I am going real hard on infrastructural vitalism rn, thank you for that framing!!

Final round of riddles (PhD exam questions) today

i made a scorpio angry nearly a decade ago and sometimes i think that the general acceleration of societal collapse is because of that person's rage at me, specifically

honestly, bad move on my part i apologize

i know it's only been like a week so it's normal that i'm still grieving my dog a whole lot but god, it is such an intense thing

this set of questions was way more generative, like I laid down some foundations for parts of my dissertation over the last 48 hours which feels really good