more mental health problems
starting to think of suicidal ideation as a kind of autoimmune disorder that I'll at best only ever be able to mitigate or manage, this sucks
Follow
more mental health problems
this is probably why I get so aggro at the "there's no time for despair" scolds—motherfucker I'd love to not despair!! but I apparently cannot turn off this part of my brain that wants to fixate on getting enough painkillers to never wake up and the shame I feel about that only fuels the despair more
more mental health problems
@ingrid despair seems like a valid response to bad situations, there's a time and place (like, say, funerals and wakes are social despair institutions.)
What I can't abide is shame. Never seen a use for it besides creating maladaptive responses and destructive spirals in people.