Ingrid Burrington @ingrid@everything.happens.horse

Lin-Manuelanguage Model

@aredridel it is a powerful feeling and I am not a fan of it!! But it has hands!!

Always struggle with the "no time for despair" framing and the way it implies there's an indulgence to sorrow, as though one is losing in the fight of one's life simply out of laziness or not trying hard enough. I would love to feel other feelings!!

@aworkinglibrary @beep just keep your two hander at the ready

@aworkinglibrary @beep mosquitos are tiny heralds

On the one hand I agree with the observation from Rebecca Solnit that despair is a valid feeling but it's not an analysis

On the other, I *feel* pretty strongly like I want to die sometimes and sometimes the feeling is too intense to really *analyze* it

@yehoak obscene!!

@ivan @nasser oh no Freddy! Lots of love to him and hope for a speedy recovery

Anyway I think I'm pretty well useless for the rest of the day from the cortisol of this non-update, goodnight

@ken oh my goodness I'm so sorry Ken that's a lot of stress to have on top of heartbreak, fuck

School starts August 29 this is utterly deranged

@danhon honestly why not I've tried a lot of angles here but not that

The entire point of doing a PhD was to get some stability and in the absence of that this all starts to feel pretty pointless!! Maybe it is time to walk into the sea

Found out I will have to wait one more week to learn whether I am funded for the fall semester and my anxiety is so bad I briefly considered dropping out just to have some certainty, ha ha ha

Great 2020 joke look I started grad school in 2021 ok

Feel like getting a PhD does actually mean you're a Certified Freak

@kit literally he goes to a gold mine and is like "whoa"